I've been rather under the weather lately. I've done too much physically and my CFS has come along and thwacked me around the head to remind me it's still there. As a result, my brain isn't running on full steam either. So I don't have this post quite planned out in my head and I don't know how coherent I'm going to be. However, I know that the longer I put it off, the more and more likely it becomes that I won't write anything at all. So here we go. I'll start typing and we'll see what happens.This is a reread for me, being read as the part of the Vorkosigan Series Read with the Beyond Reality group on Goodreads. I'm not sure how many times I've read it - it feels like the answer should be "many" but I rather suspect it is less times than I imagine. All the same, it's a book I remember as a favourite and the point where the series turns from books I really enjoy to books I love.All the same, I was nervous about reading it. For once, I even knew why. You see, as the book begins, one of the two main protagonists does something incredibly stupid. I've always been very embarrassed for characters than do this kind of thing. I'll put the book down and need to take a breather (a few seconds or a few days, sometimes it can run long enough the make the book a DNF). If it's on TV I'll get up and leave the room and I think the only time I ever walked out of a movie before it finished was for this reason.And in this case, that character, he's very close to being my favourite character in the series. Miles is such a brilliant creation that he remains my favourite, but Mark is always right there behind him breathing down his neck. And yes, it is Mark who does the colossally stupid thing. What makes it worse is that he doesn't actually do it out of stupidity, but from inexperience and youth and a desperate urge to get out of Miles' shadow and be a hero in his own right.The problem is that Mark isn't Miles, no matter how much he was conditioned to be so, and he can't be a hero like Miles. The triumph of this book is that Mark gradually discovers that he can be a hero like Mark.But I'm getting ahead of myself. I was talking about being nervous about reading the book. To do so, I was going to have to go through that with Mark and Miles and the other characters and watch it all unfold - and unfold badly. I tried to express this in a conversation on the group and was struggling to find the right words, and one of the other readers came back with "cringe". And yes, that's it exactly. If Mark had just being an idiot doing something idiotic, I could grimace a bit, but just think "well, you had that coming." But Mark isn't actually an idiot and he's trying so desperately hard (and is terrified the whole time but still keeps on going) and still he totally screws everything up. It makes me cringe.In fact, it makes me cringe in advance, just when I start thinking that I'm going to have to read it soon. It doesn't help that Mark does something else awful, not out of meanness or maliciousness or evil, but out the situation of his very, very screwed-up childhood and upbringing. Yes, he's much more at fault in this case, but not competely and again, I cringe.When I look at the dates I started and finished this book, I can break it down into the early "cringe" part of the novel and the rest. I would guess that it took me 4 days to read the first third of the novel and 2 to read the last two-thirds. Once I got past the hard bit, I couldn't stop reading and just kept going until I was finished.Which brings me to the point of this very long ramble before I even move on to the meat of the book. I don't find the first part of the book cringe-worthy because it is bad; it is because it is just so damn good. You're right there with Mark; Bujold makes you understand his motivations right along with his dreams and his errors and his ignorance. If you start reading Mirror Dance and like me, find yourself cringing as you read this early part - please, please, please don't give up on the book. The payout at the end is so very worth it. In fact, you start getting payout on your uncomfortableness (yes, I know that's not a word but it best describes what I'm getting at) long before you get to the end of the book. Please stick it out. You'll be rewarded.As for the rest of the book, on some levels it is another space adventure like earlier Vorkosigan books, but I think it is also something deeper. This is a book about identity. This has been a theme in earlier books in the series as Miles juggles Lord Vorkosigan and Admiral Naismaith, but here with the presence of Mark and the events towards the end of the book, it becomes so much more about identity than any of the earlier books have been.For the first section of the book, Mark is never mentioned by name. We get several chapters entirely from his point of view, but still Bujold only uses "he" to identify her protagonist. While Miles gave him the name Mark back on Earth in Brothers in Arms, he hasn't chosen to claim it for himself, and sees himself essentially as without an identity. Or more importantly, if he doesn't identify with Miles himself, there's no-one left to be him. So he swans along to the Dendarii, posing as Admiral Naismith, and sends them on a mission of his own choosing, always angry with him that they don’t recognise that is, in fact, not Naismith. But all the same, he is not Miles and everything falls apart around him. That's the cringe-worthy but good stuff. From there it moves on to the still good but no longer cringe-worthy stuff. With Miles out of the picture (I'm not going to tell you why or how as that's a spectacular spoiler), the remaining Dendarii, headed by Quinn, send Mark off to Barrayar. There he discovers he has a number of relatives, the most astounding of these being his parents (or grandparents, or parents-once-removed, or whatever you call people due to the tricky legalities of cloning). In her usual, clear-headed way Cordelia soon sets him straight that she would like to be, if he will let her, simply his newly-met mother. These people don't compare him to Miles (or not much), they don't expect him to do anything for them, they just want him to be a person in his own right - Lord Mark Pierre Vorkosigan. The problem, of course, as that he has no idea who that is or how to be him.All the same, he slowly begins to learn.There's a lovely part quite early on in his time of Barrayar, where Mark and Aral are talking and it is brought up that they have all studied each other and know a lot about each other."So what's the test?" [asks Mark:]"Ah, that's the trick of it. It's not a test. It's real life." [Aral answers:] And this is a core of the identity issue here. Mark can't study to be himself - or Miles for that matter. All he can do is accept the potential of Mark and slowly find out what that is and who he can become.The lovely thing about the book is that he does. It takes a while, but he does. As the action moves away from Barrayar and back into the wider galactic sphere, that respite on Barrayar (despite having some high drama of its own) has given Mark some time to take tentative steps towards developing an identity of his own. He's beginning to realise he has a mind just as smart as Miles' is; it's just that he can and wants to use it in different ways. He's had people around him react with him directly as Mark instead of as a substitute Miles (whether they know the truth about it all or not). True, that identity isn't very far developed yet, but it's enough that he knows he wants to discover who Mark is, not get tossed back into being the no-one/anyone he was before.Meanwhile, there's Miles. When we re-encounter him, he's lost his memory. (This is foreshadowed early in the book and relates to Mark's colossal blunder, so I'm going to mention it but work very hard to avoid any conspicuous spoilers.) That brilliant brain is still spinning at its usual rate, but without the background knowledge and information he usually has, he can't make the leaps of intuition he usually does to take control of the situation. Instead Mark reappears, steely and determined to rescue his big brother which leaves Miles, even memory-less, feeling like he's lost control of situation in which he should be in charge.From there, all the strands begin to weave themselves back together again, to the point where Miles, memory returned, sets out to rescue Mark, only to find his baby brother has already done it for himself and perhaps, even with his personality back together, he's not quite so in control of things as he always imagined he was.Bujold does do some pretty nasty things to Mark in this book (I'm not going to say what) but they are all implied rather than shown and I'm perfectly happy to leave it that way. We get the full force of Mark's triumph without needing the gory details. Personally, I find this much easier to read than the cringe-worthy first section.It is also lovely to see Aral and Cordelia back on their own turf, so to speak. Cordelia is her usual, clear-eyed self and her outsider’s view helps Mark appreciate the ways the reality of Barrayar doesn’t match the lies he was taught by Galen. But mostly, it is her honest, not necessarily comforting assessments of her husband and both her sons that take me love her all over again. Aral, Barrayaran to his soul even with his galactic wife, struggles with the whole mess that is so outside his experience, but remains the solid, stubborn and honest man we know him to be. And the book is almost worth it’s cover price just for the fun of watching Cordelia face down Simon Illyan and defeat him absolutely.Another thing I like about this book is that by the end, Mark isn't actually fixed. He knows who he is and he's at peace with that - but he also knows that he's very screwed up inside his head and needs to do something about it. With Cordelia's support, he voluntarily decides to head off to Beta Colony for some serious therapy (which is apparently pretty good if they're not working on false assumptions like they were with Cordelia back in Shards of Honor). There's even a hint that in a more distant future, when she's older and he's less damaged, he might get the girl (I'm still holding out for that to happen).To finish on a fun note, my favourite line of the book comes when Miles tries to explain about Mark (although not the Vorkosigan part) and what he has done."You see," Miles explained in a hollow voice to the What-the-hell-are-they-talking-about portion of the room, "some people have an evil twin. I am not so lucky. What I have is an idiot twin."This is an excellent book that sets us up for several more of my favourite books to come as I love Memory perhaps best of all, and love Komarr and A Civil Campaign especially for one of the new characters they introduce. I'm looking forward to it.I love me a Vorkosigan book with Miles in it; but I love me even more a Vorkosigan book with both Miles and Mark in it. Mirror Dance is the reason why. The journey Mark takes in this book carries me along with it and leaves me exhausted and satisfied at the end. I cringe so much at the beginning because I so desperately want Mark to succeed and it hurts when he does the exact opposite. I don't know quite why I emphasise with him as much as I do, but the fact is that I do.I love this book. I love this series. If you haven't, give it/them a try and stick with it through the cringe. I don't think you'll regret it.
I don't even know what star-rating to give this thing. I've changed it multiple times.This might sound SUPER irreverent and terrible of me, but reading this felt a little bit (just a little!) like walking through the Holocaust Museum in Israel: it's full of incredibly important things that everyone needs to see and understand, stories that need to be told and remembered, but all the while going through I wanted to rip my eyeballs out and stuff them into my ears so I didn't have to take in anything else. Horrors. Things I can never un-see.This series spends a lot of time with people who have various mental health issues, but this one was a little more intimately invested. We were never in Bothari's head, thank heavens, but Mark's... One thing I love about Bujold is that her characters do some terrible stuff, and while there is growth and redemption (of sorts) no one makes excuses for them. Even Bothari said, "just because I didn't rape you doesn't mean I'm not a rapist," and there's no trying to go around that. This book was the closest I've ever seen them come for excusing that kind of personal violence. "Yes, he almost raped that child, but you see..." I was worried for a while. Especially worried when Kareen waltzed in. I just wanted to scream, "this man is a danger to women, someone get her out of there!" all the while knowing that this girl is Drou's daughter, and she could probably snap him in half without much trouble.(At this point Kendra nodded vigorously and added, "then her two sisters would come and take care of the pieces.")But they didn't sweep it under the rug. It has to be dealt with, but it has to be done so carefully. There's no excuses, but he is sick. And Cordelia, bless her Betean heart, knows it. He needs help, and so does Kareen if she's serious about him, and Cordelia will arrange and pay for it all herself if she has to, because he can't just be cast out or locked up.Bujold has this fantastic way of showing just how ugly people are. Even the best of us. She stares right at the worst of it and won't blink, so I can't either. And I want to hate this book. And I'll straight up admit, Mark frightens me. But I don't hate this book. And I don't hate Mark. It's all very ugly, but it needs to be seen, needs to be dealt with. We can't make excuses, but we can't ostracize, neither will fix the problem. UG IT JUST HURTS SO MUCH!There's literally a line in this book that goes, "She put my skin back on!" This might be the most violent, most horrifying book I've ever read, because it's not just physical torture. Maybe not even primarily physical torture. There are these golden moments of hilarity that I clung to because everyone other instant was so fucking painful. Humanity stripped down to it's worst, and there isn't really the heroic rise through trials that fantasy/sci-fi is known for... it's more like a shuddering breath and a painful step towards something better than what they were, because how do you mend a mind after something like that? How can you be anything except broken?But broken heroism is still heroism... it just needs some help to stay standing sometimes. I'm rambling. I don't know what to tell you. It's incredible and I feel sick to my stomach thinking about it.
Do You like book Mirror Dance (1995)?
This is a wonderful addition to the space / science fiction / fantasy series that Lois McMaster Bujold has created about Miles Vorkosigan, his family and his relations. Written in 1994, it is the 11th novel in the series. I had read many of the Miles Vorkosigan novels in the past, but now, being retired, I am reading them in the sequence of Miles' development, not in the order that they were published. The first in the series is “Shards of Honor”, for those wanting to start at the beginning. I have to say that Lois has nailed it with respect to beautifully portraying honor and humanity in Miles and those around him. He is a brilliant character, constantly overcoming the challenges of his health, yet compassionate and willing to sacrifice himself for honor and doing what is right for those around him, even those who initially or ultimately are despicable.I don't wish to provide any spoilers to those who haven't read the series, but “Mirror Dance” is a fantastic addition to the series, dealing with issues of honor, ethics, love, loyalty, suffering, torture and redemption. I don't know if Lois believes this series is now complete, but I certainly hope to read more of Miles and the Vorkosigan cast of characters; I am inspired and encouraged by the dignity of these characters.
—Michael Purcell
**edited 11/28/13When Mark Vorkosigan looks in a mirror, he doesn't quite know what stares back. Mark was created a clone, trained as an assassin, intended to replace his progenitor, Miles Vorkosigan, as part of an attack against the infamous Lord Vorkosigan of Barrayar. But Mark failed spectacularly in carrying out his task, partially because of the discovery that Miles himself has constructed an artificial identity as Admiral Miles Naismith of the Dendarii Free Mercenaries. Now Mark again plans to step out of the mirror to assume the identity of his clone brother, this time as his Naismith persona. For Mark to regain his sense of self, he wants to go back to his birthplace, the ruthless and ruleless Jackson's Whole, to rescue the other clones from their dismal fates. But Mark is merely a doppelganger; he lacks Miles' addiction to adrenaline and furious thinking in the face of adversity. When that desperate moment comes, can Mark carry out Miles' dance in his place?Mirror Dance is one of my favourite books in the Vorkosigan Saga. Sure, it's a rip-roaring adventure involving at least three heists--I rather lost count--but it also touches upon the profound. Due to my disapproval of GR's new and highly subjective review deletion policy, the rest of my (rather verbose) review is posted on my blog.
—Carly
when appreciating characterization, Space Opera - much like its cousin Epic Fantasy - is often more about surface appeal rather than depth. for the most part, that's okay by me. I can enjoy the expansive world-building and intriguing concepts, the science and adventure, without realistic or meaningful characterization. as long as the characters are fun, I'm not going to overthink it. I'll look for rich, resonant characterization elsewhere.Bujold's Vorkosigan Saga is very nearly the opposite of all that. there is quite a bit of world-building & intriguing concepts & science-magic & awesome adventure... but it is not expansive in the way of most space operas. Bujold's sagas are not dense tomes filled with microscopic detail; the elements mentioned are present but are more subtle, streamlined, carefully parsed out in thoughtful ways. and most importantly, depth of characterization is the key ingredient in this series. the tension and excitement and appeal come directly from these books' exceedingly well-developed characters. it is pretty wonderful.so this one is about Miles and his clone-twin Mark; it features a botched rescue and what family is about and ways that trauma impacts us and how we escape from that trauma. it does a superb job at showing the intrinsic differences and similarities between Miles & Mark and it does an equally excellent job at rehabilitating the reader's understanding of who Mark actually is and how he is able to be heroic, despite the basically pathetic traits he's exuded so far. it has a fantastic action sequence in the beginning of the book, a nicely quiet and relaxed sojourn on the planet Barrayar in the middle, and a surprisingly disturbing torture-and-escape sequence near the end. for me, the novel's stakes felt so high not because of the importance or pathos of the mission (the rescue of slave children would be a generalized way to describe it) - but because the stakes for these utterly three-dimensional characters are so high. I was anxious about how all of this played out because I lived in these two characters during my time in Mirror Dance. it is the darkest and richest of the Vorkosigan novels that I've read so far. I loved it!
—mark monday
