3 Disturbing Yet Understandable Stars * * * I love ballet and the dedication it takes to accomplish it. There is a beauty in all the control... with the parallel feeling of freedom when the dancer performs gravity defying jumps and spins.This story has two characters wracked with guilt and need. Both are tortured with nightmares and driven in their own ways.... that they end up connecting and finding each other is a miracle.We meet the dancer and are introduced to her way of coping. She has systems, rituals and ways to block out her demons. The engineer is working on his project and is stuck... he cannot seem to find the answer to his problem and turns to the TV for distraction. There he discovers a dancer soaring through the air and is captivated. He researches everything on dance and finally feels he must see it live...while it is actually happening.There is an audition taking place: our gal is there in the middle of her performance and he barges in disrupting her concentration, She starts over with his eyes on her... they are connected... and both will never be the same.This covers serious issues... guilt for loved ones; how we can feel responsible. It also touches on the need for grieving and how important it is t work through it. This book may be difficult as there are a lot of plot points which may have triggers for some. They were handled with care; yet they were there. This is a part of a series in the new adult genre. I love that this was a different story line. She is a ballerina with issues from her past, who is still in school for dance. He is haunted by the death of his parents and is an engineer. So you're wondering how their paths cross? How the heck do these people meet? Well for one, he crashes one of her auditions and two, he needs a muse for his creations and tracks her down. So he pays her to dance for him. No, not like that fellow perverts. Dance, as in ballet. Pointe shoes and all. He even builds her a stage..in his basement...so she can dance. It's really not as creepy as it sounds. He literally pays her to be his muse. There is an instant connection. The desire. It's all there. Building between them. It's not only them though, and this part made me laugh. It's also there for their best friends, Clarissa and Neil. That unexpected desire. Except with these two, they are like oil and water.. and let me tell you, it's quite interesting. But they just can't fight it either. Anyway, Darrel wants to tell Natasha what's haunting him. What his night mares are, especially once they fall in love. But he can't. Neither can she. She can't tell him about her nightmares or what she does to herself. They both are so afraid to lose what they have, but letting their demons rule them. I was so nervous for her. And yes, kind of mad. Mad because I don't understand why she would want to do that. Why she needs to do it. But isn't that what we do as humans, we get upset about things we don't understand? Sigh.... she explains it, the reasoning, the need, and I kind of got it. Not saying I accept it, but I understood the need for it. Then, oh my god, he tells his story. You hear what his nightmares are and why he does what he does. I seriously felt like my heart broke. I can't fathom that. I just wanted to crawl in my kindle and hug him. Like just hold him like a little kid. And this Carol chick. I wanted to kick her ass. I wanted to attack her. Like go full fledged psycho on her. Cat fight and all. But, the end, all of it, had me laughing, smiling, and literally throwing my arm in the air "breakfast club" style screaming yesssss! I loved the ending. Minus the Aston Martin. *Cringe* But all in all I loved it. It was awesome.
